Getting back our report cards wasnt exactly a good thing for most of us. For me at least. Imagine getting an L1R5 >20. Surprisinly im neither upset not worried? Not upset because i know i didnt put in effort to get the grades i wanted. Watching tv. using the com or even sleeping(lol) whenever im free despite having very little free time... Not worried because many of my classmates are getting roughly the same grades as i am? Not being complacement but at least i know that im not the only one getting such horrible grades and that there are many others attempting to a million times better...

Most people that get MY kind of grades woud probably say im gonna work harder next term. Im gonna stop being so lazy, stop depending on last minute studying, stop copying homework but i seriously doubt if i can really study or do all my homework everyday? If i promise myself all of the above i would probably end up procastinating again. So i will just say i will TRY MY BEST :D hehe.

School has been really great, with the help of my friends, but life seems to be getting more scary by the day. The fact that i actually witnessed a car accident left a great impact on me. I remember watching car accidents on tv and i told myself that i never want to see that in real life. And unfortunately i was forced too and here i am suffering from aftershocks. A heartbeat of 120/min and insomia? A few days later a lady gets dismembered to death while seating in a taxi? Singapore roads are hearby declared unsafe! I wonder if i will even dare to drive in the future? I should just stop thinking about it or i'll never get to sleep until christmas!

I gotta start praying...

penned at 11:48 PM